My beloved Teacher, Your third precious missiveEditorial Note: This letter is not extant. is at hand and I hasten to reply. I did receive your letters but mine you have not I see. I knew by the second one you had not received my reply but what was I to do. I had opened my heart to you on the subject of Mr Slades discourse and told you of my own trials. Seeming as they were I confess, I wrote you after the letter with the form for a reply, reached me my letter contained many pages. I with the same enclosed an article I had published in that same paper, not from my pen, as Mr Williams was unwilling that I should enter into newspaper As Written: news paper controversy on the Subject he still having axes to grind, and materia medica dogging his heels As drugs you know are in great demand in this Christian land of Sabbaths, and its teeming multitude of ministers holding up their idols not of wood and Stone but heathen Gods part the Same

The article I had published the week following Mr Ss. Sermon, and it was the one copied As Written: coppied from the daily Advertiser, Subject “Christian Science”. I thought the people could by that see there were not two or more schools And to Show that you were the founder of the great mental System ordained of God, And demonstrated by our blessed Savior Jesus Christ. I did not ask my husband if I might do that. I thought I must use the wisdom of the SerpentMatt 10:16 ¶Behold, I send you forth as sheep in the midst of wolves: be ye therefore wise as serpents, and harmless as doves. , And of course when it came out, no one knew who sent it in for publication

I have ever had a great admiration for Nehemiah how discreetly he answered the heathen king. it will not do to tell all that is in our heart to do for God, I feel it would be a thing impossible to tell you of my varied experiences since my initiation into the vast laboratory of mental Science. I feel my feet have but touched the outer vestibule As Written: vestabule , and with eager eye I am trying as though a door open peer into the hallowed holy Sublime mysteries of the inner Sanctuary I am certainly only a dull learner –

As I trace the many and intricate pathways that have led me thus far in my search for divine Truth. That bread which came down to us. The true bread can only satisfy the heir of Heaven.John 6:25 And when they had found him on the other side of the sea, they said unto him, Rabbi, when camest thou hither? John 6:26 Jesus answered them and said, Verily, verily, I say unto you, Ye seek me, not because ye saw the miracles, but because ye did eat of the loaves, and were filled. John 6:27 Labour not for the meat which perisheth, but for that meat which endureth unto everlasting life, which the Son of man shall give unto you: for him hath God the Father sealed. John 6:28 Then said they unto him, What shall we do, that we might work the works of God? John 6:29 Jesus answered and said unto them, This is the work of God, that ye believe on him whom he hath sent. John 6:30 They said therefore unto him, What sign shewest thou then, that we may see, and believe thee? what dost thou work? John 6:31 Our fathers did eat manna in the desert; as it is written, He gave them bread from heaven to eat. John 6:32 Then Jesus said unto them, Verily, verily, I say unto you, Moses gave you not that bread from heaven; but my Father giveth you the true bread from heaven. John 6:33 For the bread of God is he which cometh down from heaven, and giveth life unto the world. John 6:34 Then said they unto him, Lord, evermore give us this bread. John 6:35 And Jesus said unto them, I am the bread of life: he that cometh to me shall never hunger; and he that believeth on me shall never thirst. John 6:36 But I said unto you, That ye also have seen me, and believe not. John 6:37 All that the Father giveth me shall come to me; and him that cometh to me I will in no wise cast out. John 6:38 For I came down from heaven, not to do mine own will, but the will of him that sent me. John 6:39 And this is the Father’s will which hath sent me, that of all which he hath given me I should lose nothing, but should raise it up again at the last day. John 6:40 And this is the will of him that sent me, that every one which seeth the Son, and believeth on him, may have everlasting life: and I will raise him up at the last day. John 6:41 The Jews then murmured at him, because he said, I am the bread which came down from heaven. John 6:42 And they said, Is not this Jesus, the son of Joseph, whose father and mother we know? how is it then that he saith, I came down from heaven? John 6:43 Jesus therefore answered and said unto them, Murmur not among yourselves. John 6:44 No man can come to me, except the Father which hath sent me draw him: and I will raise him up at the last day. John 6:45 It is written in the prophets, And they shall be all taught of God. Every man therefore that hath heard, and hath learned of the Father, cometh unto me. John 6:46 Not that any man hath seen the Father, save he which is of God, he hath seen the Father. John 6:47 Verily, verily, I say unto you, He that believeth on me hath everlasting life. John 6:48 I am that bread of life. John 6:49 Your fathers did eat manna in the wilderness, and are dead. John 6:50 This is the bread which cometh down from heaven, that a man may eat thereof, and not die. John 6:51 I am the living bread which came down from heaven: if any man eat of this bread, he shall live for ever: and the bread that I will give is my flesh, which I will give for the life of the world. John 6:52 The Jews therefore strove among themselves, saying, How can this man give us his flesh to eat? John 6:53 Then Jesus said unto them, Verily, verily, I say unto you, Except ye eat the flesh of the Son of man, and drink his blood, ye have no life in you. John 6:54 Whoso eateth my flesh, and drinketh my blood, hath eternal life; and I will raise him up at the last day. John 6:55 For my flesh is meat indeed, and my blood is drink indeed. John 6:56 He that eateth my flesh, and drinketh my blood, dwelleth in me, and I in him. John 6:57 As the living Father hath sent me, and I live by the Father: so he that eateth me, even he shall live by me. John 6:58 This is that bread which came down from heaven: not as your fathers did eat manna, and are dead: he that eateth of this bread shall live for ever. John 6:59 These things said he in the synagogue, as he taught in Capernaum. Gods own Spiritual children The Bible seems illuminated through the understanding I have already acquired through your blessed teachings, “If I be lifted up will draw all men unto me”John 12:32 And I, if I be lifted up from the earth, will draw all men unto me. Lifted as Life comprehending in itself all, Eternity the ever present, Without beginning without end, the evermore of Truth

If I be lifted up as Truth difficult to explain in word, and comprehended only in part, as Moses witnessed not definably the awful majesty of Jehovah As Written: Jehova God. Love as the perfection of all that is pure, perfect casting out the image of the heart, Christ the resurrection, is it any wonder we are stirred when we see the world so given to idolatry. And we in possession of a tithe of this glorious revelation. But I must tell you of myself. My demonstrations have not been marked. I have been able to help myself and the children at all times. Some of my patients are well, some I help but do not bring them entirely up they gain for a few days and then remain there two cases I took this week one seemed an instantaneous cure almost, the other is nearly well. Mr Williams has been a severe trial. I have been able to conquer some of his beliefs that little belief of tumor is a mountain just a wee thing on the back of his neck. I have been so tried for he marked at ScienceEditorial Note: Christian Science in that it is imaginal to remove mole hills. he of has had strange beliefs constantly assailing him. I would not more than get the advantage of one till anotherAs Written:an other came worse than the first. he Said to me not long since your ScienceEditorial Note: Christian Science is a grand humbug &c &c _ Notwithstanding I stand attesting the Truth as firmly now as when my feet first stepped out and felt the rock even Christ supporting me. That touch of sublime trust in its small beginning made me whole. I am no longer a slave to fear as regards myself, for I would dare to die the shadow death – For there is no death to them who understand. Life is God

That God is our Life our all. I must tell you in taking patients I have been bled and often sent them to others or excused myself I have feared the perfect Model was not mine I think I have tried to comprehend the Infinite idea in its completeness and I see that were folly I have plead alone with God on bended knee & in the night watches I have tried to peer into the unfathomable and back I have been driven clinging ever clinging hoping the Clouds might dissolve.

Sufficiently so that I might but see the Sheen of His glory whom As Written: whome my longing Soul loveth and above all desireth to know in part. My dear Mrs Eddie can you comprehend somewhat of my standing. I said the cup of trembling I should not longer hold when I left Boston but I do not believe you have ever sent out a child with such trembling footsteps – I have felt so alone so foolish so unable to meet the adversary I have been tempted to think the MastersEditorial Note: Jesus Christ’s call was not to such as me. I a poor mean dwarf, I have Said yes healing were a gift in the olden time. And to me the power will never be imparted because of my stupidity in things Spiritual. I surely have not that discernment. I have drifted now and then getting a glimmer of the far out ocean where there are no buoys needed. Deep water pure as crystal as it were from out the Throne of GodRev 22:1 And he shewed me a pure river of water of life, clear as crystal, proceeding out of the throne of God and of the Lamb. , I have been often cast down but not forsaken trembling but not in despairII Cor 4:8 We are troubled on every side, yet not distressed; we are perplexed, but not in despair; II Cor 4:9 Persecuted, but not forsaken; cast down, but not destroyed; II Cor 4:10 Always bearing about in the body the dying of the Lord Jesus, that the life also of Jesus might be made manifest in our body. II Cor 4:11 For we which live are alway delivered unto death for Jesus’ sake, that the life also of Jesus might be made manifest in our mortal flesh. – I hoped Fanny Silsbee might take a tour West. I thought she might help me to cast anchor or at least get my net down on the right side of the ShipJohn 21:1 After these things Jesus shewed himself again to the disciples at the sea of Tiberias; and on this wise shewed he himself. John 21:2 There were together Simon Peter, and Thomas called Didymus, and Nathanael of Cana in Galilee, and the sons of Zebedee, and two other of his disciples. John 21:3 Simon Peter saith unto them, I go a-fishing. They say unto him, We also go with thee. They went forth, and entered into a ship immediately; and that night they caught nothing. John 21:4 But when the morning was now come, Jesus stood on the shore: but the disciples knew not that it was Jesus. John 21:5 Then Jesus saith unto them, Children, have ye any meat? They answered him, No. John 21:6 And he said unto them, Cast the net on the right side of the ship, and ye shall find. They cast therefore, and now they were not able to draw it for the multitude of fishes. . I may almost Say I have fished in vain having caught little I dare not say nothing. I think best to send my letters to another’sAs Written:an others address I know you will not get them if address to you directly. Advise me for I do not feel I can afford to fall into the enemies hands as heretofore I must have. I think now I know why I have not succeeded better in my work. O! that the dear Father will enlighten my darkness.II Sam 22:29 For thou art my lamp, O Lord: and the Lord will lighten my darkness. Ps 18:28 For thou wilt light my candle: the Lord my God will enlighten my darkness. That I may honor His precious causeEditorial Note: The cause of Christian Science., you have just cause to be proud of Mrs Silsbee. And I am proud of her prosperity but Smooth Sailing will not be to the follower of Truth in this age of idolatry. The MasterEditorial Note: Jesus Christ told us all about this way but He also promised to be with us alwaysMatt 28:18 And Jesus came and spake unto them, saying, All power is given unto me in heaven and in earth. Matt 28:19 ¶Go ye therefore, and teach all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Ghost: Matt 28:20 Teaching them to observe all things whatsoever I have commanded you: and, lo, I am with you alway, even unto the end of the world. Amen. . And could we but realize more fully His ever presence. We should not hold the cup of blessingI Cor 10:16 The cup of blessing which we bless, is it not the communion of the blood of Christ? The bread which we break, is it not the communion of the body of Christ? trembling but neither walk with trembling steps this highway of holinessIsa 35:8 And an highway shall be there, and a way, and it shall be called The way of holiness; the unclean shall not pass over it; but it shall be for those: the wayfaring men, though fools, shall not err therein. Isa 35:9 No lion shall be there, nor any ravenous beast shall go up thereon, it shall not be found there; but the redeemed shall walk there: I shall go to Chicago about the middle of next month NovemberAs Written:Novem, I wrote Mrs Sherman many weeks ago but never received one word in reply. Strange it is, my letters probably are intercepted in that direction I shall write again this week and ask her to call upon me at the PalmerEditorial Note: Palmer House where J. and I intend stopping a few days – Should they not call I will find them in their home. I believe them true. Mr Slade has left here, he was offended at me I presume as he came here several times but did not call. I am deeply grieved with the work in Chicago.