I was glad to hear from you, B but I feel utterly unfit for business. We have not heard from the settees yet But will enquire where you said I hope you will come and see me, if I knew where you were and I could board with you I would come go and stop with your wife a while and see if she could cheer me. X X X

Words are vain, I cannot write my grief and you cannot have the least conception of it. I feel almost as if I never should be comforted while I stay away from my loved precious one that has gone before meEditorial Note: Asa Gilbert Eddy died on June 3, 1882.. O my tears blind me, I cannot cannot think of him as gone if I could only go to him gently, naturally and not meet as he did a violent death I should be happy happy. When I see you I will tell you all; he was strong, noble, had the sweetest disposition and the most benevolent Charitable nature I ever recognized in any person. He is our first Christian martyr he was the one whom they feared for he was bold to expose their crimes and had never no fear of their hurting him. If only he had been more selfish or caring for himself he would now have been be with us. I had a class, three meetings in the week the whole College resting on me, lectures every day and no house keeper when he was sick I did not give him the attention I should if only I had known the danger