I am so tempest-tossed – I have fought and battled, day after day and night after night, and the light is not made manifest. I haven'tAs Written:have'nt a single bitter thought in my heart toward you, only a greater love as I realize more and more through what fierce conflicts your way has been won. I have striven so hard to understand and follow your teachings, to bring forth in my demonstration the proof of faith I profess and the seeming failures mock me.

Your bookEditorial Note: Science and Health with Key to the Scriptures by Mary Baker Eddy is always with me and a day never passes that I do not seek aid from it.

I have not forgotten your strict injunction to guard myselfAs Written:my self and my patients from malicious mesmerism but I don’t know how to treat myselfAs Written:my self as I ought-

Can you help me, or must bitter anguish and painful experience be my only teacher–

I do love you, I do love Christian Science but I feel that I must have a more sure understanding of how to overcomeAs Written:over come the beliefs of my patients.

The beliefs seem more unreal every day, but what does that avail so long as I do not destroy the seeming reality.

Give me that I have need of and if it be severe rebuke or loving counsel As Written: council I will bless you for it.