Recieved Corrected: Received your kind letterEditorial Note: This letter is not extant.. have read and re-read it. If I gather a full understanding of it. its Corrected: it's not a call for me into the service of God. It seems more for my personal happiness or the appearance to others.

Mrs Eddy I must express myself frankly if at all. I firmly and earnestly desire to be of use to God. and the ScienceEditorial Note: Christian Science. Much as I love my husband, and desire his companionship. I can earnestly say. a unity of spirit a unity of thought, is more to me. than unity of person. His work seems to be at BostonEditorial Note: Boston, Massachusetts for the present. while it leaves Milwaukee without any oneCorrected:anyone to direct or lead them. I can say. (with outCorrected:without egotism) Mr Stahl and my selfCorrected:myself are the only ones who can in any way fill Dr's place. It seems to me my work lies here. at least for the present until some oneCorrected:someone appears to fill my place.

my heart and life is consecrated to the causeEditorial Note: The cause of Christian Science.. and you Mrs Eddy as my Teacher, alone can guide me. as to what way. the consecration may be the most effectual to the Cause.

My own thought is this. that if I am ready for the Normal and equal to it..

that is, imparting what little knowledge I have to others or assisting either Dr or Mr Stahl in teaching. when this Mr S–– is fitted for it.

[?] Unclear or illegible – iIf you th [?] Unclear or illegible ink – best I would like to take a Normal Course. I want to do what is right & best. I want to be guided aright. no matter what the self-denial (and itsCorrected:it's no small one to me) I want to do it. great & glorious light has come to me in the last few days. I see clearly where-inCorrected:wherein. in the past I have judged from a personal stand pointCorrected:standpoint instead of in science. or righteous judgmentJohn 7:24 Judge not according to the appearance, but judge righteous judgment. .

again where-in Corrected: wherein words instead of motives have weighed with me. but now I come to God empty. to be filled of his righteousness to be used in his vine yardMatt 20:1 For the kingdom of heaven is like unto a man that is an householder, which went out early in the morning to hire labourers into his vineyard. Matt 20:2 And when he had agreed with the labourers for a penny a day, he sent them into his vineyard. Matt 20:3 And he went out about the third hour, and saw others standing idle in the marketplace, Matt 20:4 And said unto them; Go ye also into the vineyard, and whatsoever is right I will give you. And they went their way. Matt 20:5 Again he went out about the sixth and ninth hour, and did likewise. Matt 20:6 And about the eleventh hour he went out, and found others standing idle, and saith unto them, Why stand ye here all the day idle? Matt 20:7 They say unto him, Because no man hath hired us. He saith unto them, Go ye also into the vineyard; and whatsoever is right, that shall ye receive. Matt 20:8 So when even was come, the lord of the vineyard saith unto his steward, Call the labourers, and give them their hire, beginning from the last unto the first. Matt 20:9 And when they came that were hired about the eleventh hour, they received every man a penny. Matt 20:10 But when the first came, they supposed that they should have received more; and they likewise received every man a penny. Matt 20:11 And when they had received it, they murmured against the goodman of the house, Matt 20:12 Saying, These last have wrought but one hour, and thou hast made them equal unto us, which have borne the burden and heat of the day. Matt 20:13 But he answered one of them, and said, Friend, I do thee no wrong: didst not thou agree with me for a penny? Matt 20:14 Take that thine is, and go thy way: I will give unto this last, even as unto thee. Matt 20:15 Is it not lawful for me to do what I will with mine own? Is thine eye evil, because I am good? Matt 20:16 So the last shall be first, and the first last: for many be called, but few chosen. . this is not clear to me at all times. how I can ever be strong enough to do all that I desire to be fitted for. personal ties are so real and strong with me. the tangible evidence of love seems so requisite to my happiness. but I realize God requires only the willingness to do. then the grace & strength are give Corrected: given in abundenceCorrected:abundance. I could not endure to be with those I love. unless I too am advancing and necessary to the work. I would be more separated from them if our thought and desire was not [?] Unclear or illegible  one with the FatherEditorial Note: God. I feel these are times. when each one must stand for the Truth. independent of the other.

Am not I. as much a child of God as my husband? or any other worker?

Am not I to do any thingCorrected:anything for the MasterEditorial Note: Jesus Christ?

If I inherit the KingdomMatt 25:34 Then shall the King say unto them on his right hand, Come, ye blessed of my Father, inherit the kingdom prepared for you from the foundation of the world: I Cor 6:9 Know ye not that the unrighteous shall not inherit the kingdom of God? Be not deceived: neither fornicators, nor idolaters, nor adulterers, nor effeminate, nor abusers of themselves with mankind, must not I manifest it. myself? I cant Corrected: can't leave it to him (my husband) to drag me in through his righteousness.

I care not what others may say. or what appearances may be. God knows and that is sufficient. if this is my place. I can stay here until my place is filled and I am called higher, at present to all appearances I am needed here. I have no desire to teach. I feel I am not equal to it, I can help another to do it. I would like another course of instruction. I need it. I would like this student of Dr's (this Mr Stahl) to be fitted for higher work. he also wishes to advance. & is the most earnest of all Dr's students here. I presume Dr has told you of him.

We find much work to do in reestablishing the regular Friday evening tatlks. the AssociationEditorial Note: This is a reference to a branch association of the Christian Scientist Association in Boston, Massachusetts. meetings. the afternoons devoted to the public besides our treating. but we have endeavored to assume the whole as though Dr had left for good & all.

Dr no doubt will tell you of our encounters with the malicious thought things that seem grevious Corrected: grievous to bear have occurred but I believe we are growing in science. in the under standingCorrected:understanding of Truth and away from personal sense.

I have opened my heart to you. these are my thoughts & feelings. are they right? have I chosen the better [?] Unclear or illegible  part?Luke 10:38 ¶Now it came to pass, as they went, that he entered into a certain village: and a certain woman named Martha received him into her house. Luke 10:39 And she had a sister called Mary, which also sat at Jesus’ feet, and heard his word. Luke 10:40 But Martha was cumbered about much serving, and came to him, and said, Lord, dost thou not care that my sister hath left me to serve alone? bid her therefore that she help me. Luke 10:41 And Jesus answered and said unto her, Martha, Martha, thou art careful and troubled about many things: Luke 10:42 But one thing is needful: and Mary hath chosen that good part, which shall not be taken away from her. I will try (with the strength that will be given me to be guided by your judgement in the matter. but really Mrs Eddy I dont Corrected: don't want to come to Boston for the present. after a Normal course I might feel different. I can see the need of my services here. and am willing to remain if best.