Your letterEditorial Note: This letter is not extant. is before me with its astonishing and wholly unlooked for rebuke, and after going to my FatherEditorial Note: God, whose ear is ever open to the petitions of His childrenPs 34:15 The eyes of the Lord are upon the righteous, and his ears are open unto their cry. I Pet 3:12 For the eyes of the Lord are over the righteous, and his ears are open unto their prayers: but the face of the Lord is against them that do evil. , I feel that I can answer you in perfect truth and love and that I do not merit this rebuke, and the reproof, which asCorrected:was severe enough for culpable, covering all the ground from the "time I first came to you." You say "I send or bring the sick to you, but never a well student." My dear teacher I never brought you a sick student that I can remember, but I did ask if one of my patients could be put into your class before he was entirely healed, and I should not have asked for him, but for the help I knew he would be to you, and the causeEditorial Note: The cause of Christian Science.. You will I beg forgive me for that and remember that "to err is human." You say I "have been calling in one way and another for more help, instead of helping you." Do I wake or am I dreaming? I really cannot understand what you mean my dear Mrs Eddy. Have I not followed your instructions and strictly abided by your rules, and boldly and unflinchingly defended you and the causeEditorial Note: The cause of Christian Science. everywhere and at all times? Have I proved the power of this blessed ScienceEditorial Note: Christian Science which I received from you by healing the sick, and reforming the sinner? or have I as you say in your letter "been in darkness ever since you gave me the blessing which I now know?" Have I been in darkness, when I have thought I was abiding in Him, and where did error so deceive me, as to entrap me when I have prayed without ceasingI Thess 5:17 Pray without ceasing. since I received from you this blessed light. If we ask for bread He does not give us a stoneMatt 7:9 Or what man is there of you, whom if his son ask bread, will he give him a stone? Luke 11:11 If a son shall ask bread of any of you that is a father, will he give him a stone? or if he ask a fish, will he for a fish give him a serpent? and if He fills our hearts with love for His children, and we see the fruits of the spiritGal 5:22 But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith, Gal 5:23 Meekness, temperance: against such there is no law. when we search our hearts, where is the open door for the enemy to enter? I have since your request treated myself twice a day for the foe, and until I read your letter I was calm as Truth, and far stronger than ever before; was doing better and more work in healing, and more among the clergy and press than ever, but you say "I must break the spell of mesmerism and oblivion to the right sense of my duty to you." I have no energies which have not been taxed for you, and no ability to comprehend your instructions, if I have erred, when I was doing my best, and constantly asking for more light, and a thousand tongues to praise His name and feeling His presence as never before. Again you ask why I "brought that weak woman contrary to all your rules." That lady was my very dear friend, who hearing of Christian Science last fall sent for Mr. Dresser as his name was sent her as being one of the best. She knew no difference in methods until I enlightened her, since she came here. She had not been able to walk for five years, but so far as I can judge she is perfectly well and called upon you as one Christian, large hearted woman would call upon another who had been so loved by those whom she loved, and believed, and for the purpose of talking with you in regard to entering your Monday class. She has been travelling about in rain and had a belief of hoarseness that day which may have giver her an appearance of weakness, but she is well and if she could have studied with you would have used her brilliant talents, and extensive social influence for the causeEditorial Note: The cause of Christian Science.. I was very anxious for you to see my patient who was cured in one week of a belief of cancer or I should not have claimed your time. My motive was good, for I thought it would make you happy to know I was successful. Ever since, I have had to defend you against the charge of being sternly reserved, unchristian and rude, and deny you ever pained any one intentionally under your own roof. She would not have been a charity student. I have never asked you take such, only those who would require a little time. Ever since your blessed teachings ushered me into this glorious light, I have followed in the path you marked out, and childlike carried good tidings to you that you might rejoice with me. If you saw neither love nor gratitude, it is useless for me to endeavor to convince you. I have never come into your presence when my heart was not overflowing with love and gratitude, but you do not understand my best and purest motives, but [?] Unclear or illegible  I shall follow your instructions, and trust someday you will know that I am entirely consecrated to Him, when from a child I have loved and served in my blindness, and to you and the causeEditorial Note: The cause of Christian Science.. I shall carry the banner of C.S.Expanded:Christian Science high, and you shall have no cause to regret having taught me the blessed truths, which from the lips of one I shall always love, is a priceless treasure. I have been taught by you the wiles of the enemy - the "spiritual wickedness in high places,"Eph 6:12 For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places. and shall not be sleeping with unbarred doors. I shall meet no party from the other side, as I never have since I began, except your student, of whom I spoke to you. I am doing and shall continue to do all I can for the causeEditorial Note: The cause of Christian Science., and believe me I will never again add one burden to yours, in the form of personal requests or application for others, but asking God to guide, I shall rely implicitly upon His direction. I would gladly lift your burden tho' I staggered under its weight; and trust you will believe me. And now my dear dear teacher the Lord bless all your efforts for others, as He has blessed your endeavors to instruct me, and promising you that I will "meet my obligations" as soon as I possibly can, and with gratitude which I cannot express I am lovingly and prayerfully and truthfully your faithful student