New Haven, ConnecticutAs Written:Conn,
Oct. 29th 1885
For some time I have wanted to write you thanking you with all my soul that you have led me into such a clear understanding of this glorious truthEditorial Note: Christian Science - hosts of clouds you seemed to clear away for me, and I never can be too thankful that I yielded to the strong impulse to study with you - How much of my determination to do so may be due to Dr. Dormans silent thoughts I do not know, for he has since told me he felt he must have me go. ThoughAs Written:Tho' he said little about it wishing me to act entirely uninfluenced - I do wish all your students would abide as closely by your instructions and live as good a Christian life as he does, and the work wouldAs Written:wd progress much faster - Had I had the least intention of being lax in any way he wouldAs Written:wd have talked me out of it in ten minutes -
I was obliged to go to WorcesterEditorial Note: Worcester, Massachusetts for two weeks, so came here as recently as Monday, the 26th - Have had nothing to do except at home, where I can always find work enough - I do wish some strong scientistsEditorial Note: Christian Scientists might come here for there is an abundance of work to be done, more particularly among those apparently well, I think - (I know all are well but all do not appear to be, hence the expression "apparently well") -It seems strange that in a place of this size (80,000) there shouldAs Written:sd be nothing scarcely known or thought of this wonderful work - I do trust I can do great good here, and I know if the chance is given me and I fail no one but myself will be to blame, for I have had the best of instruction and have had more encouragement from some of your best students than it is the good fortune of all to have - I felt very encouraged todayAs Written:to-day to read this in Science & HealthEditorial Note: Science and Health with Key to the Scriptures by Mary Baker Eddy: "we never despair of an honest heart" - Had read it many times before but since coming here one ray of hope is more gratefully accepted than when I am surrounded by scientistsEditorial Note: Christian Scientists - The old thought of longing to lean on someoneAs Written:some one else is dreadfully hard to overcome, but I see that seeming weakness may become my strength by turning it to dependence on God, not man - Already I see a great change in that respect and find myself doing fearlessly things I once couldAs Written:cd scarcely have done from so much fear - ScienceEditorial Note: Christian Science is the thing for me always - I think your lectures stirred me up completely, for since I left (& even before) I seem to have gone throughAs Written:thro' a terrible season of temptation - Every old dragon in me seemed roused, and no one knows the struggles I have had - A belief of deafness necessitated a course of treatment before I couldAs Written:cd come here - It was so slow to yield I had to just battle with a strong desire to [*]Editorial Note: The following text was later added to the document by the author or another annotator, disrupting the surrounding thought. ⇉ Handshift:UnknownWrite Burenn & [?] Unclear or illegible [*]Editorial Note: End floating text. ⇉ Handshift:Helen L. Swanresort to material means - I expect you are horrified - I never had such a feeling since I first heard of and was treated by scienceEditorial Note: Christian Science, and I could not account for it - Many a time I battled with that thought, but it did not seem destroyed until I said "if God does not deliver me I will not be delivered", and in two days from then I forgot my belief and was surprised to find myself all right - I could shout for joy at my deliverance, for I never knew anything distress me more than that -
You made me realize I must practice this - I incline to too much study and too little demonstration, which does not answer - There is altogether too much dead faithJames 2:14 What doth it profit, my brethren, though a man say he hath faith, and have not works? can faith save him? James 2:15 If a brother or sister be naked, and destitute of daily food, James 2:16 And one of you say unto them, Depart in peace, be ye warmed and filled; notwithstanding ye give them not those things which are needful to the body; what doth it profit? James 2:17 Even so faith, if it hath not works, is dead, being alone. James 2:18 Yea, a man may say, Thou hast faith, and I have works: shew me thy faith without thy works, and I will shew thee my faith by my works. James 2:19 Thou believest that there is one God; thou doest well: the devils also believe, and tremble. James 2:20 But wilt thou know, O vain man, that faith without works is dead? James 2:21 Was not Abraham our father justified by works, when he had offered Isaac his son upon the altar? James 2:22 Seest thou how faith wrought with his works, and by works was faith made perfect? James 2:23 And the scripture was fulfilled which saith, Abraham believed God, and it was imputed unto him for righteousness: and he was called the Friend of God. James 2:24 Ye see then how that by works a man is justified, and not by faith only. James 2:25 Likewise also was not Rahab the harlot justified by works, when she had received the messengers, and had sent them out another way? James 2:26 For as the body without the spirit is dead, so faith without works is dead also. - I feel happier since writing, for I must talk, and I do not enjoy any but scientistsEditorial Note: Christian Scientists, for I cannot think of anything to talk of - Please do not be disgusted with me, for I have not yielded to any of the temptations I have had -