You letterEditorial Note: This letter is not extant. was very welcome. and has done me much good. I do not mean to turn to you for help. and want to do what is just & honest to every one, and must be honest to myself. God has given me the power to overcome evil, and though I am slow to fully understand yet wish his help. I will conquer. I do not make the headwayAs Written:head way that I feel I ought too.

I read my Bible & books S. & H.Editorial Note: Science and Health with Key to the Scriptures by Mary Baker Eddy. and it seems to me that I ought to do so much more than I do. and be able to heal others sooner. some days I have a struggle I can tell you to hold my ground. and appear like myselfAs Written:my self before people. Yet I have never given up. And when it seems as though my work did not amount to anythingAs Written:any thing I look around me & can see some good results from my efforts. There are three that have been healed through me that will enter your next class.

I am not ashamed to send them, the fourth one is a friend of mine I am planning and before long will execute. and if my life & time are good for anythingAs Written:any thing. I will not be known by my bad works. I feel ashamed of myselfAs Written:my self that I am not yet where I ought to be.

and that I can see just how to destroy all these old beliefs that have been thrown on me, in different ways. Thank God and you my dear teacher, but for your instructions I don’t As Written: dont think I should have a belief of any wits or sense now. I want very much to see you before long, and if you think best will come when the ladies do. to join your class, and stay in Boston a day or two. they would like to have me go with them, and I want them to hear you speak on Sunday before the class opens, and as soon as you decide I would like to know what date class begins. I am not without work, but do not take as many as I did at a time, am trying to do more work on myselfAs Written:my self, so that I can do better work for others. I think I have a good understanding of what (pure cussedness) is. and as soon as I gain the right understanding & know just how to manage them. I think there will be a commotion in the cesspool.

I receivedAs Written:rec’d the paper thanks. There is no power on earth that will make me give up Christian Science. or love & perfect confidence in you. perhaps this scourge is for good I hope so.