Feb. 25th 1886
I should not trouble you with a letter, were it not to thank you, from my inmost soul, for the blessed light your words have shed, to my mind, on a subject which hitherto had not only been dark to me, but terrible to contemplate. I have already requested Dr. Bradley to convey to you a message of thanks; but I feel more gratefulness As Written: greatfulness than that message contains, nay, more than any words can convey, and I therefore beg you to excuse me for repeating it. I shall never forget my first visit to you. I asked you a question — the question of all questions, not only of my heart, but of the ages — and I shall now never forget your answer. The question was; if God is infinitely As Written: infinitly good, and is not the author of evil; and if he is omnipotent,, then why does he permit it? In a work I have read, by a catholic priestAs Written:preist who livedAs Written:wholived in France before VoltaireAs Written:Voltair, entitled "the Superstitions of all ages" this question is discussed from a rationalistic and infidel standpoint, and the conclusion he arrives at was this: "God either can and will not, or he will and cannot, destroy evil", thus casting the guilt upon God at either horn of the dilemma. This, of course I knew, could not be true. But I nevertheless saw continually, evil rampant, while God appeared to be somewhere As Written: some where away off in the clouds, seeing it all, and letting it all go onAs Written:one. To my very great delight, I now see it all. I did not see it immediately after your answer, but it came to me since, while meditating on your answer, and, of course, I see the truth in all its blessed glory: this is all unreal to God; it has no existence in his sight; how can it have any existence to him, or be real to his sight, to him, in whom there is no evil? To see evil, is to believe in it and to believe in it he must be evil himself. Like the distorted vision of the maniac, or the monsters which the man in delirium tremens sees – your illustration to me — all this sensual experience is unreal. Of course, I do not see the monsters which the maniac sees because I cannot see with his eyes and through his belief. Neither can God see any of my ills because he cannot see with my eyes and through my beliefs. This is the only explanation that can exist, the only answer to the question; and it is sufficient and satisfies all the conditions of the problem. These many years have I searched for a solution among the best thinkers of the age! Allow me to tell you in grateful As Written: greatful remembrance, and with the appreciation of the Source from which your own light comes, that to you is due the credit of having solved it again after well nigh 1800 years of dark oblivion. How it elevates the heart! How it brushes away malice, envy, hatred and revenge from it! How can I be angry with my brother who injures me in his ignorance? Not any more than I could be angry with a man in delirium tremens who should fancy that I was his enemy and s hould attempt to kill me, or do me some harm:
But I shall not let it rest with this discovery.. Infinite As Written: Infinit truth lies now before me, and I trust that the light which I now have, will lead me with still better acquaintance with it and our God.
Please accept this small tribute,, — only words it is true, but you know better than I do where your real reward is treasured — and in the anticipation of seeing and hearing you again I remain