I have received your kind letterEditorial Note: This letter is not extant. and am sorry to say I see it altogether impossible to act on your advice notwithstanding my great desire to do so. To come now I could not for while the higher duty would justify me in forsaking the lower, under these circumstances it would be much questioned and then by doing so I would be deprived of the means to obey the higher. Heavy obstacles have been in my way and such obstacles there are now as to convince me that my time is not yet come. If the way was open and then I should selfishly or cowardly neglect the opportunity I should consider myself unworthy of your counsel, but it is just because I cannot that I do not avail myself of your liberal offer. You can have no conception of my appreciation of your kindness; and, when I consider the grandeur of your mission and what is evidently mine for I know you are right, all else seems like folly and time wastingCorrected:time-wasting. But I believe God will open the way yet. My wife is very reasonable about it. and says she is willing to investigate, but does not think that now is the time. She wants to go with me and will go and says if we were able she would go now, but that is out of the question. She realizes that to accept "Christian Science" practically is to incur the censure of all our "orthodox" friends, and the enmity of all our fleshly kin, And she is willing to endure this when she sees we can be situated to defend ourselves. but for me to go now or even January 1st (and we are not both able to go then) and leave her to the questioning sarcasm of they of her own house and her own kin is not for the best. she speaks of you with great respect and kindness and is ready now already to my surprise to defend your arguments. Her little clouds of prejudice will soon pass away altogether, and when I come she will also. Now understand me. If I could see it possibly clear I should obey your call for I must in the end. It is the voice of Truth. I shall continue to study. The time will not be lost and as soon as I can I shall learn the way of the Lord more perfectly. Should occasion demand it and you can find it convenient I hope I shall hear from you again. But I know your time is very precious I am now more determined than ever to learn "Christian Science" and everything I do I have in view, going to BostonEditorial Note: Boston, Massachusetts. I pray God if it be His will to honor me with the glorious mission to be faithful. Our Father bless you forever.

Do not think me cowardly or unfaithful. It requires more courage and patience to say to my desire to go, "Be still"; than it would require courage and will, to go. I cannot make my situation clear to you in writing. As soon as the way is opened both of us will be ready to walk in itIsa 30:21 And thine ears shall hear a word behind thee, saying, This is the way, walk ye in it, when ye turn to the right hand, and when ye turn to the left. and that may be before we know. expect it