Mr. W handed me your letter this P.M. I did not mention Mrs. C's name to Mrs. W— I accomplished my labor of love without it and I thank you for the caution in your letter and will remember it– What an easy task it is to tell of your love for me- and the world- I can melt anybodyAs Written:any body when I talk on that- but what if I told them all of the wretched return I made for it! Do you blame me if I tell this sin of myself? Your love and word can only be seen with its real Truth when I tell to what tests I put it— How wilful and bad I have been- How I too have helped to add care and pain to your life- And you never speak of it you never seem to remind me of it or remember it- but always bless me so- I think I never suffered as I suffer now when I am beginning to understand you- Every time I see you it is harder to bear- this great chasm between your life and mine— and only because you are so gentle do I dare try to undo what I have helped to do in the past—
I do not yet see how to make any amends except by just minding you- doing now just as near as I see the way as you direct- perhaps you wont need to watch me so closely by and by- if I grow more reliable and trustworthyAs Written:trust worthy- This is loving you- there is no other way to show that I love you therebyAs Written:there by trying to do just as you do- pattern my ways after yours- Oh- I can think that I may yet hear you say 'this is my beloved child in whom I am well pleased-"Matt 3:16 And Jesus, when he was baptized, went up straightway out of the water: and, lo, the heavens were opened unto him, and he saw the Spirit of God descending like a dove, and lighting upon him: Matt 3:17 And lo a voice from heaven, saying, This is my beloved Son, in whom I am well pleased. Matt 17:5 While he yet spake, behold, a bright cloud overshadowed them: and behold a voice out of the cloud, which said, This is my beloved Son, in whom I am well pleased; hear ye him. but it is not for a long time yet- perhaps for years -